![]() ![]() This was the first time I heard someone convey that the hallucination was prompted by a trigger. She said, “When my daughter gets angry, she sees black creatures crawling on the floor.” I was 25 giving a NAMI presentation to a group of ninth graders when the lead presenter spoke of her daughter’s schizoaffective symptoms similarly to how I experience them. They are a part of me, and I view them as natural as my left arm. They are uncontrollable, and only subside with medication. However, I do not perceive them the same way as if my actual mother were talking to me. Their realness to me is dependent upon my level of reacting to them as if they are real. For example, if I have an abusive voice, I react as though it is my mother abusing me. Regardless of whether they feel like they are coming from the “real world,” I often react to these voices as if they are. I perceive the voices as external characters communicating with me, but the voice is different from the voice of someone in the “real world.” In fact, I most closely identify them as very loud thoughts - except, as opposed to normal thoughts, I perceive them to be stimuli and characters that are not me. When it comes to auditory hallucinations, my word choice would not be “hearing” things. I experience it like a camera lens focusing on its subject, where the background becomes blurrier depending on how lost in it I am. In my case, I experience a tunneling, narrowing of my focus and attention from reality to the hallucination. I am still not certain as to whether I experience the same phenomena as others who use “hallucination” to describe their symptoms. It never occurred to me to associate the word “hallucination” with my experiences. The imperfect descriptions made it incredibly difficult for me to identify as a person who hallucinates for a very long time. But I also have rampant mood swings, leaving me ecstatic for an hour, perhaps several days, followed by hours or days of feeling depressed or suicidal. ![]() I have symptoms of schizophrenia, like “hearing” and “seeing” things that aren’t there. I am a person with schizoaffective disorder. Years later, I still feel perplexed by exactly what it means to hallucinate, despite no longer being an outsider. To an outsider, the symptoms are just too hard to understand. What if she reacted to me in an inappropriate or unexpected way and justified her behavior due to a vision or sound that I could not access? I felt helpless, confused and scared - and I suspect these emotions are shared widely by society towards those with schizophrenia. The idea of someone having the ability to see things that the rest of the world did not made me fearful of my aunt. How could someone perceive something as real that others did not? For the rest of my adolescent life, I tried to understand what that meant. When I was a child and I met my aunt, completely taken over by schizophrenia, my father explained to me that she “heard” and “saw” things no one else did. This question has been one that has puzzled me for as long as I have understood schizophrenia. They are creatures between man and mouse, sometimes whisper and occasionally walk on his head or body.What does it mean to “hear things” and “see things?” In these paintings, patient was drawn dwarfs in nearly one inch. Here we introduce a schizophrenic patient with Lilliputian hallucination who created famous paintings. Patients usually describe them as the persecutor dwarfs or life from another world. Lilliputian hallucination is a rare symptom in psychotic patients a visual type hallucination that things and persons appears smaller than the real size. When hallucinations are too amazing to believe and more persecutor than any pain, and when thoughts are so dispersed which other cannot understand and nevertheless, there is no treatment for these boring symptoms, art and specially painting may be a way to relief them. Without them understanding patient’s world and their symptoms is impossible. ![]() Psychotic patients may project their symptoms into their drawings and use paintings as a way to illustrate their special feelings and thoughts. This relation has more importance when understanding famous painters such as Van Gogh, Paul Gauguin and Louis Wain have had such disorders. Since several years ago the relation between art and mental disorders has been interesting for psychiatrists. ![]()
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